the Rowan diaries.

When Kent was born, it was a great joy but also a great sadness for me. We had agreed we were done having children but my heart was not fully ready. Each first and last of his was a mourning in me. I wanted to hold on so badly but time kept going and he kept growing. The last time I nursed him I cried believing I’d never be that close to a babe again. I had accepted it but was grieving too. A deep longing in me remained and in the past couple years, it only grew stronger.

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baguettes and beginnings.

See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
— Isaiah 43:19

For the past several years, I’ve been wanting to write consistently. Just to share thoughts and fun things and deep things too. I’ve always seemed to have roadblocks, whether outside circumstances prevented me or my own mind and fears. I’ve just felt held back in one way or another. I put a lot of pressure on myself, and I feel like if I can’t do something the way I envision it, there is no point in doing it at all. I basically want to start out perfect and not have to go through the disciplines, the failures, and the learning it takes to actually be good at something…even something like writing a blog once a week. I know that I suck at consistency. I have no idea how to design things to make them pretty. I also feel like I have nothing to say when I actually sit down to produce something. I basically already know I’m going to fail, or not live up to my expectations, so why start anyway?

I trust/believe myself more than anything or anyone to a fault. If I don’t think I can do something, I can’t. If I believe I can, I can. What I think about myself is what matters most to me, which I know produces wounds in my own heart. I have some deep rooted wrong beliefs, even about the Lord’s kindness and graciousness to me. I have a hard time believing His truths and promises over my life. It’s also one of the reasons why compliments are hard for me. If I don’t believe what you are saying for myself, I am inclined to think people are just being nice instead of genuine. What a weird, self-deprecating pride, to dismiss kindness, generosity, and love because I believe I’m the only one who can be right about who I am. I’ve been asking the Lord to soften my heart recently. Soften it to Him, to others speaking His truth to me, and to myself.

So anyways, this blog is a step in being vulnerable, opening myself up to weakness, a way to trust God over myself. What I want for this space is a weekly newsletter of sorts. I’ll be sharing thoughts I’ve been mulling over, scripture that the Lord is teaching me through, favorite recipes and products. Maybe even some funny memes…I have a pretty weird/great sense of humor that doesn’t come out that often. So I hope you find comfort and encouragement here.

-Kate


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I met with a friend, Jess, for a date night last week; and yes, you can have a date with your bestie. We had not spent time together just the two of us in a while and really needed that community. When she asked if we could hang out, my first response was, “Can I bring bread?” Jess is my friend that loves food as much as me. We are always sharing recipes and talking about things we want to try. Anytime I make something new, I gotta give some to Jess to get her feedback. So food is always involved when we get together. I’ve been making lots of breads lately and recently saw a recipe for whipped feta that I knew would go great with a baguette. So I made baguettes, whipped some feta, and roasted some tomatoes, and we enjoyed a fancy charcuterie board with wine outside on her balcony and talked for hours. And both the conversation and the food were good for the soul.

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Whipped Feta:

Feta block
1/2 cup plain greek yogurt
drizzle of olive oil
salt and pepper
1 drop Lemon oil
fresh rosemary - for garnish

Combine all ingredients in a food processor and whip until combined.

Roasted cherry tomatoes:

1 pint cheery tomatoes
drizzle of olive oil
salt and pepper
3 cloves of garlic, minced
1 tsp fresh rosemary

Preheat oven to 400. Combine all ingredients in a small oven safe dish, where the tomatoes are just barely in one layer. Roast for about 25 minutes, until bubbly and soft.

Grab a baguette, slice it up, top with feta then tomatoes for a delectable treat.


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And finally, here’s this gem. Because you know I’m watching Twilight. #teamedward

Halloween 2020.

We did all the normal things this Halloween. I know that might sound crazy to some but to me, what was crazy was keeping my kids from experiencing another part of life this year. My kids have had to give up so much. They still haven’t met their 1st grade teachers. They haven’t played with more than a couple close friends from church since March. They didn’t get to do any normal summer activities. We decided we aren’t keeping them from things anymore. The mental, emotional, social, and physical health of my kids is extremely important to me. We are holistic people, and we are going to live like it.

So we did Halloween. And I actually think there were MORE houses open for trick-or-treating this year than last. There were lots of clever ways of handing out candy safely (lots of candy chutes!), which I figured would be the case. Honestly, it was so much more fun than the regular ring-the-doorbell way. We still have a ton of candy, and I have no idea how we are going to be able to eat it all!

Here’s a fun gallery of us all dressed up. And by all, I mean ALL, parents included!

Costumes are as follows:
Jack: SWAT team, Traeh: spooky witch, Autumn: snow fairy, Kent: skeleton, Greg: skeleton, Me: witch

birthday.

My husband says I’m hard to encourage. And he’s right. I honestly just do not believe people when they say kind things to me. It’s not because I think they are lying or anything like that. It’s because if I don’t believe it about myself, or if I see myself differently, I think, “If they really knew me they wouldn’t think those things.” It’s like, “That’s nice and all, but I know the truth. You’re just biased or seeing me through some faulty lens that makes me appear better than I actually am. I’m really not that good. I’m actually kind of terrible.”

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baking bread: a mediation for Lent

Baking Bread, a mediation for Lent:

Find a bread recipe and use the mediation below as you go to turn your bread making experience into a meeting with the Father.

Gather your ingredients: Jesus came to gather his children to himself. As you get the ingredients think of his purpose to bring others into himself. He first gathered His disciples with the plan to bring us all in to an eternal life with Him.

Measure: The plan has been laid out from the beginning. Jesus knew what his purpose was. He was in communication with the Father for every decision, every miracle, every word. Just like a recipe guides the baker, communication through the Holy Spirit guides our every day life.

Mix: Jesus lived a real life and encountered real people. Think of his physical life, the steps he took, by really feeling the dough as it mixes through your fingers. We also take steps every day, interacting and speaking on His behalf. We go through ups and downs, but where we are going He has gone before.

Kneading: As we approach Good Friday, remember His punishment with every knead.  The punishment He took for us, for our sin, so we would not have to endure such anguish. Then His physical body died on a cross and he was placed in a tomb.

The rise: As the dough rises, we wait. We hope all will turn out like it is supposed to, like the promise God gave us long ago, but we have to wait. Sit in that. Not knowing, yet hoping. Meditate here. Maybe there is something that you are hoping for from the Lord, meet Him here.

The bake: Anticipation grows as we see that he is still moving. The stone is gone. Could it be true? Could he have fulfilled our greatest hope? Look for signs of His work all around you, they are there even in a hard season. He is always at work, for the good of His people and for His glory.

The fresh baked bread: New life is upon us. He has risen just like He said. He is alive with us now, in the midst of all the chaos of the earth. He is here among us, not just to fill our bellies or meet our needs or take away the storm. Our prize is Him. His presence is the gift. Delight in who is He is, He is beautiful and He is for you.

Use this bread to share communion with those you love.

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fear.

Whew. What a topic to be vulnerable about.

This year, I have been part of Go Teams by Go and Tell Gals and one of our coaching sessions was on fear.

Before this, I would not have considered myself a fearful person. Fear wouldn’t be something I would confess in a small group or ask for prayer over. Besides the fear of safety (city living, y’all) I didn’t know I was fearful.

I do, however, play it safe. And that is just another way to say fearful.

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